schoonmaak means cleaning and ‘merapihkan’ everything

today is my schoonmaak day, because today is my last available day to this cleaning thing, OMG it’s very tyrin… makes me regret why didn’t I leave spacebox to binnenhoff *it would be easier in terms of cleaning room* why didn’t I do this and that ooh why does the schoonmaken time becomes very melancholist?

and then I started to think I have to do all this cleaning and erase my previous ‘existence’ in this room, if I have to leave this country, do i have to erase all my existence here?