Living in Netherland sometimes makes me feel like I’m livin in Twilight Zone, everyone acts different here, eventhough you know them well, sometimes you have to face the fact that you NEVER know them well.

I always tried to get close by Indonesian community here but by the time I tried to crashed in to some friends place, some people will say ‘hey you didn’t send me any news that you would get here’ sometimes I wonder what happen to all those people who always welcome their guess, and do the talk until midnight? Am I the one who always rejected by people or people really already changed? Because back then when I was living in village called Bandung, my friend always be friendly to me and welcoming every time I went to their house.

In the era of internet some people may say ‘hey why don’t  you send me an e-mail?’, I have to admit I really hate rejection, when I sent e-mail there will be 50% of rejection, and It’s kind of makes me dissapointed and sometimes it makes me feel like I’m useless and undervalued, some people even put formal word on their e-mail and it makes me think that they really don’t want me to come to their house.

Oh well, accepted or not accepted it’s their right, I did my best as a human who wants to bound silahturahim at least I did best according to me, what comes to me?  Wallahualam Bissawab..