For all my 24-years of living
I never been in my lowest point on my life just like this time, let me tell you what happen during my past 2 weeks:
- I accidentally flushed water to my camera, the result? I have to bring the camera all the way to Schiphol to repair it and today I got the letter that indicate that my camera can’t be repaired (and then I think do the all sensor on the camera burnt? because it was burning when I try to dry the camera). The thing is I forgot to buy the guarantee when I bought the camera, dead end, I’m doomed. My Sony A200 camera that I just used for 4 days just became a nice memory to me. I’m thinking just to take the camera and bring it all the way to Indonesia, where (sometimes) some creative skillful guys could repair it (if I’m lucky enough to find one)
-I got an opportunity to do thesis on one company (yay! \(^o^)/) but when I made appointment with my lecturer they said they were busy and unable to have a meeting with me untill the 2nd week of May, so eventually it means that I have to postpone my thesis, and my graduation.
-I feel like my housemate avoid me to talk, I don’t know why, perhaps they are the type that ‘I choose to speak outside the house than here’ i feel like my homey becomes cemetery at night and also at the day.
- I haven’t finished to work on my ANSYS assignment, eventhough it’s just 1 ects, it’s surely hell pain in the ass, especially when all I do is procrascinating
- I didn’t pass the Dynamic of Structure’s exam for the 3rd time, that’s it! I’m officially dumb, I’m not good enough on this stuff, and for godsake now I feel regret for taking Floating Structure and Bottom Founded Structure as my specialization
- to add my miserable life now I’m having my period, it hurts so much, not only mentally but also phisically
- I feel like I’m away from my god…
I feel alone, but actually I never alone, I feel so dumb, I feel so silly, I feel I’m nothing, I feel like I don’t want to live any longer, and I really don’t know what to do with my future.
God, are you there?
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April 27, 2009 at 12:00 pm
ukechin
Dira lagi kenapa?
ayo sini cerita2 sama dakuwh
April 29, 2009 at 10:58 am
tisa
-I feel like my housemate avoid me to talk, I don’t know why, perhaps they are the type that ‘I choose to speak outside the house than here’ i feel like my homey becomes cemetery at night and also at the day. —> dudette, I really dont appreciate you writing things like these. You only wrote half of the story. It’s not fair.
oh yes, I did not discover your posting by myself, someone pointed it out to me. If you have any problem with me, I’d appreciate it if you’d come to me first..
May 2, 2009 at 7:55 am
bungawardani
I’m sorry sha, I didn’t mean about that
it was just what I felt back then, I feel so depressed and I just want to write it anyway I know from whom you get the link but it’s not a big deal
Anyway I already got over it, we already have normal conversation (right?)
intinya tis, gw ga bermaksud untuk menjelekkan nama lo, it was just my thought just my blabbering, I even didn’t expect you will get this link.
I regret I wrote this thing I better erase it from my blog.