I feel uneasy about my condition

My heart always filled with doubt

I know what should  I do but I feel lazy to start it

I really don’t like my condition now

I need encourage

I need a push

I need everything that could put me on my best performance

I need a breakthrough

I need to break my own shell

I need to be more confidence

I need love

with so much demand in this world

I need to stand still against all the bad thing that could turn me into my night mare

God, I’m begging you

Give me a stronger heart that could defeat any frown

Give me a stronger feet so I could walk further

but most of all

give me a power to accept anything that I couldn’t change

-Jaiyo Dira!-

some note when I was working on BFS assignment

Once I had a class of Dynamics of Structure (one class that I tried so hard to graduate from it) the lecturer told the student about natural frequency. Natural frequency is one frequency on structure when structure could oscillate without any external force.

Our lecturer asked us ‘Why does the structure and surrounds pick certain natural frequency’ some people say because the interaction between the structure and the environmental load, some student say because the damping factor (natural frequency is function of damping and mass) but then the lecturer made an analogy of a man who hired for the job if the workload is same someone must pick a job with better salary.

That’s what happen on all system, he said that every system always try to take advantage from another system, and on certain frequency two or more system interacts so they can absorb more energy form another, that’s why the system choose certain frequency.

I began to think that if every system that has natural frequency always looks for taking advantages of other system especially if the systems had an interaction. If human has their own natural frequency they will look for other human who has same natural frequency so it could maximize the capacity, but is it possible to find something like that? And if it’s possible can we say that soul mate is really exist?

“Our soul mate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person.” –Richard Bach-

I took the course of Offshore wind farm this quarter and today the lecturer explained the the detail about what we should do during the project, instead of giving us the short list and simplify the thing the lecturer told me the details leaves the student not even chance to breathe.

First let’s take a look at the aim of this course, and those are:

•Give an overview of the aspects that play a significant role in designing a wind farm.

•Create understanding of how these aspects influence each other

•Create a realistic view of where offshore wind energy stands as an economic source of energy

•Give you a head start should you wish to work in the offshore wind industry

•Make you offshore wind enthousiasts

Gosh that’s a big expectation.

The project is about the designing of Offshore Wind Farm but not only we have to consider the technical part but also we have to consider social and legal issue, to make the list more complicated they didn’t give us any supported data, they (the lecturers) consider their student to understand all the problem and what should we do with it, and yeah it’s kind of suck especially when you count on search engine like google.

Meantime, they also didn’t give us the procedure and specific time to consulate.

Oh well c’est la vie the show must go on, the job must be done, for better or worse

Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved -William Jennings Bryan-