Hoeve Ackerdijk August 9, 2009

On a sunny day of June, amy friend asked me whether I ‘d like to join them on a summer excursion, at first I kind of skeptical about the trip. First, because it was held my christian community, so I’m affraid it would be like christian ‘joy and blessing’ trip. But since I was really bored on my room and I need sunshine plus my friend from Islam community also join the trip so I gave it a go.

The trip turns out to be fun trip, just let me explain it the way that a 3rd grade schooler explain. I woke up at 9 in the morning and rode on my bike, I make appointment with my friend on the corner of the street (this is so Indonesian, meet in the ‘pengkolan’ hahahhahaha), we spent 10 minutes to wait for my other friend (Ms.E) and then we were riding our bike again, after riding our bike for 15 minutes we were realize that we were lost, the appointed place should be 5 minutes distance from TU Delft. But yes, we spent like 10 minutes rode our bike and another 10 minutes to return back.

Our destination was Hoeve Ackerdijk, it was an ecological farm, I bet someone who read this blog wondering what’s the different between ecological farm and normal farm? I’ll tell you on the folloeing paragraph. By the time we got there, some of the international student from ISS-Den Haag already gather, the owner prepared us some drink and explain about the history of the place. He showed us the aerial picture of the area, and believe it or not it hasn’t change since 1970, we’re not even on outskirt of city but even the rural development not change since 1970.

Ecological farm treat their cattle differently from normal farm. Eventhough all cow came from the same breed, most of the cow are american-frisian cow and they were imported from French, confuse? welcome to globalization. Eventhough the size is enormous, they didn’t feed the cattle with trans genetic (TG)  food the cow was fed by natural grass or wheat, the farmrs only gave pellets if the cow was sick or during the milking period.

Unlike modern farming, these cow were treated more ‘humane’ they were able to walk on the prairie, able to milk their children, and the during the milk producing the treatment is not as cruel as modern farming. The sewage treatment also conducted naturally, the manure of the cow is thrown on the prairie around the farm so it could nourish the soil. They put priority on local content especially for the food.

Well too bad my journey on Hoeve Ackerdijk, must end during the noon, afterwards me and my friends (Mr.C and Mr.R) went to Oriental to look for our dairy needs, it made me realize we’re not ‘ecologically-aware’ and afterwards I spent time to chat with them in McDonalds, It was a happy day..

Baby sitting May 31, 2009

I have to admit that I really adore a fulltime mother, I never be able to imagine myself dedicating my whole time to my family.

This month I got a chance to be a baby sitter, and these are the most frequet question that my friend asked m, and it’s most frequent story I tell to my friend.

1. does the mother working? I said no, she just busy with her activities, only his *the baby* father works as dentist.

2. then what does the mother do? Well, she’s Dutch socialite, she’s even has a schedule to visit all her friends, and she put it on the fridge, my friend will make long ‘oooh..’ and I think I knew what crossed on their mind, it is crossed on my mind too

3. Details of the baby please? Baby M, boy, 2.5 years old, speak dutch or I should say weird baby dutch *Sometimes I can’t catch what he’s saying*, I spoke to him in Indonesian eventhiugh he didn’t understand it I force him to do speak to him like that.

4. Details of the job please? I spent 2-6 hours per day with him, I didn’t work everyday only 2 days a week and it’s based on the call. They paid me 5 eur/hrs

5. How does it feel? It is kinda boring, especially when the baby doesn’t response to your word and didn’t obey what you’re saying

6. Why don’t you look for another job? Well, basicly I need the money of the job, to change the money due to my spring break vacation and I spent money on my broken camera, I have to look for a way to reimburse it.

7. Do you have any photo? Offcourse.. Presenting Baby M

today March 5, 2009

Today, I feel like I’m the most useless person in the world, so helpless and I even couldn’t even help myself

I know I should prepare for exam or just working on my assignment but eventually I just spent my day in front of my laptop doing something that makes not worth to live as a student.

I have a bad habit to call my boyfriend, and if we had a lengthty conversation it will be end up in fight, and after the fight I didn’t have any desire to do anything, good for him (because he can do whatever he wants to do) but bad for me (I finally spent my day with watching comedy TV series)

Come to think of it  I know I should make a breakthough, say on my studying style, I should encourage myself to study at least 8 hours per week, to prepare the report and working on assignments, try to pass 23 ECTS so I could start my thesis next quarter.

But first of all I have to get my butt off from my glued laptop chair.

homecoming blues… January 27, 2009

Some people may write about their new year resolution on their blog, some also write about their prediction and expectation on this new year.

I didn’t have any mood to do that, somehow on this new year didn’t give me any new hope, my mind stuck on regreting what have I done in the past, and it didn’t solve any problem since I didn’t know what to do for my future. I wish somehow I could drag my feet away from this black hole that always suck me into the deepest darkness *this is a bit exaggerating*

The problem started with my home coming for this winter somehow this ‘home coming blues’ doesn’t heal that fast perhaps because I spent most of my times at home to study all by my self, well that’s because i have to otherwise I wouldn’t be able to graduate in the perfect time

Somehow I overcome this homecoming blues by telling my problem to my friends,  I have to admit it for better or worse people basicly a social creature, first person that I called is.. Rahma! We’re separated by english channel but still I could contact her, and somehow telling her about all that I did in Indonesia and all those stupid promise that I made with my boyfriend and all my worries about my future makes me feel that I’m not alone.

Yet still when the daylight end up I was crying like a baby the feeling of loneliness and all those pain when you come when you feel sad come into my heart. Have you ever felt it? to have someone that you love but you can’t even touch them or see them  sometimes when you close your eyes you can feel their touch, listen to their voice, and those fading image about them seemed to return in your eyes. It hurts to realize the fact that eventhough they were still alive but they are far away from you.

In my weeping night I remembered about my late friends she died 4 years ago, she was my best friend, she left me so sudden I coudn’t even say goodbye to her. Eventhough I already get over my sadness, but sometimes if I got down I remembered her eventhough it’s judt a blurred image on my mind or just burble of her voice. After she left it took me sometimes for me to get over her, to accept that she’s no longer in this world. I was really on unhealthy mindstate back then and I’m always think that time was my darkness time.

This homecoming blues made me re-think again am I worth enough to life?

Oh god, I know You were there, always watching me and give me a guidance to life, I believe that if You without your permission  and guidance I wouldn’t be able to walk even one step in my life. God I’m begging you please give me a strong heart, a heart that strong enough to fight all the sadness in my mind, a heart that strong enough to give me positive mind in my brain, a heart that always let me know that I’m not gonna lonely in this world eventhough I’m alone, aheart that able to receive any reality in live eventhough it’s really bitter.

I believe something happens for a reason, when I haven’t found that reason I never tried to look for it, I just believe that the reason is exist, and I will know it sooner or latter.

Last day of internship December 4, 2008

last week my internship ended, some how i felt relieve and bit anxious about my future, first I still haven’t got thesis topic and also my credit is somehow still under the thesis standard. I feel relieved because finally I don;t have to get up in the morning catch the train to hoofddorp that makes me caught in a heavy cold twice in a month and makes my life really miserable because every time I caught in the cold my asthma also concurrence, these past two months really give me physical challenge.

Anyway my internship report is about the ‘Analysis of umbilical Effect on a subsea Hose’ the tittle might seem very long and it looks like a graduation project , but believe me it was nothing like my graduation project, now all I have to do is sent this report to my supervisor and hopefully I could graduate from TUDelft on 2 years.

I did learn a lot during my time in Bluewater (the company I worked with) it’s an engineering company but they did a lot of research on my university. Unlike Indonesian company that rarely worked with university here they had close relation with university. The company also more flexible to their employee it’s really up to them whether they want to come or not and in this company they got total 30 day$s off per year.

Oww.. All these internship time makes me consider to stay in Netherlands and start my career here, but something in my heart tell me that I don’t want to stay any longer in Netherlands after I graduated I want to stay in another country in a new country and I also would like to experience the whole world!

go dira go!

dentist oh tandarts July 7, 2008

today is my 4th visiting to dentist, my dentist is a girl that comes from Germany (or I thought she came from Germany, because she has weird dutch accent) I think I’m one of the frequent visitor of the dentist, now I could predicting what the dentist will do on my tooth, first she would ask me whether I need an anesthesia (this moment the anesthesia was very strong I barely could feel my mouth, my tongue, my ear) and she injected me with the bitter anesthesia.

Next step will be the filling part, first she did some boring on my tooth, and then put the matrices, and did the filling, and she put some kind of *filling dyer* i think it radiates some kind of UV light and it has beeping sound if it’s already 5 beeps she will remove it. the final stages will be the tooth adjustment. Wait for 15-60 min *depends on the damage level of tooth*, voila you could use it again!

Netherlands famous for it’s high health expenses, and this is what i have to deal every time i saw the dentist bill, how much i should pay on this visit? 192 eur for filling 2 tooths, luckily the insurance would reimburse my money *i hope..*

Moral of this posting

Remember to brush your teeth every night and everyday, every time you had meal and before you sleep